It's like you were just somebody completely different.
I feel like really dissociated, and I feel really bad.
Or wait, so I'm back again, four day five.
I'm getting so frustrated.
Why won't people talk to me?
And then that person, after the end of this week, like Saskia Gucciha, will win.
That exists anymore.
I'm Fia, and I'm a girl.
As an active viewer user,
I find one of the most influential aspects of VRChat is the game's ability to change people's perceptions of themselves and their connections to their
bodies based off of your avatars.
When you're in VR, your brain looks at your avatar's body, and really is the message.
That's me.
I mean, when in your life have you ever looked down and not been you?
Never.
It's a completely new phenomena still being explored scientifically and philosophically.
But for the community of dedicated players, it's one of the most that can be discussed.
Why you think people invest in full body tracking and create themselves custom avatars?
For that reason, VRChat attracts a large community of LGBTQ plus players in furries that find comfort in these avatars.
But there's a significant amount of people who weren't necessarily trans or gender fluid or panning.
for you before playing my avatar looks like me my entire life i've been female so putting on a
hot anime girl avatar might not be as groundbreaking for me as it is for some other people so to explore
this topic of gender identity more i decided to put together my own experiment meat sasuke utah He's a 24-year-old unemployed e-boy,
living with his parents who spends his time escaping reality by sitting in front of a mirror with his mute VRGF, but with a catch.
He's me.
Saskia Gucci has me.
For one week, I went into VRChat every day on an old account to see what it's like to be here.
a boy,
I literally had no idea how people would treat me or what it would feel like to encapsulate a male body and it ended up being an interesting experiment and to say the least.
Before starting I knew I needed two things,
an e-boy avatar and a convincing voice changer because um I don't think this is very convincing.
Oh my god, thankfully I was approached by voice completely unrelatedly who wanted to sponsor a promoting their new AI voices pack.
But instead, they loved this video idea and decided to sponsor the entire video and help me breathe life into the lungs of Sasuke Gucciha.
All week dudes we can start experimenting a little bit with a voice that's called the custom bitch
Feel and I'm a dude now
You'll hear me using this custom voice throughout the video and I literally would not have been able to do any of this without
them So please watch through until the very end to see what you think because I We have a 5%
off discount code that directly supports me, and it's perfect for discord streaming, soundboards, and of course VR.
Now get ready for the emotional, tragic, beautiful journey that was, and is...
Sasuke Gucciha.
Oh, this is kind of nerve-wracking for some reason.
Okay, Pagan 24 and just here to chillin' me around.
Oh, okay, so is this, like, accurate then, babe?
Yeah, that's pretty good.
Oh, yeah, I don't want to crush my pee-pee bowls.
Yeah, everybody, watch out for my 12-inch f***.
Okay, so the first day I was pretty awkward because I wasn't really sure how to interact
with people naturally and I pretty much came off as a creepo so people would literally just walk away from a mid conversation.
It was basically what you would expect from a girly girl like me having no idea how to actually get dude,
I even got laughed at one point.
I've got a new one.
That's why I don't like using this one.
didn't.
Alright, so Night 2 is off to a little bit of a rough start.
My has randomly crashed twice.
The for tonight has been I'm gonna meet up with my VRChat Bestie,
Croa, and incorporating me into the group without any of them knowing that I'm actually Theo.
I am hoping that after resetting and unplugging and all this different stuff that maybe it will not happen again.
So, let's go.
So, yeah, I just gave up.
So we're about to start day three.
What I'm actually going to be doing is joining me on Patreon Meetup.
I hold a VR chat meetup at the end of every month for my Patreon members,
and so I,
Fia, had to conveniently leave about halfway through a game of Never Have I Ever, which just
so happens to be the small period of time that Sasuke Gujiha was able to come.
The were the only ones who knew about this,
but a lot of these people are actually my friends who knew me inside and out at this point,
and well, believe it or not, they had no idea.
Your mannerisms were quite masculine.
I was convincing enough that you would have thought I was a dude.
You were very convincing.
Yeah, absolutely.
The were on par for sure, yeah.
So yeah, shout out to voice mod, because literally no one had any idea I was using a voice changer the entire time.
So by this point, I was getting comfortable being a boy, but day four.
Or is the day that changed everything?
Today I'm gonna go back public world hopping and hopefully make some friends
I explored around feeling way more dude like than before and ended up in a world with some people playing pool
And a guy wearing the exact same avatar as me So I tried to stick up a conversation about it, but got totally ignored.
I'm getting so frustrated Why won't people talk to me?
I was hanging out there for a while and then walked near
Didn't even start talking to a
girl Immediately one of the guys just walked up there and got hyper territorial of this girl just threw me proximity of her,
never in my life have I experienced that before.
But once I started up a conversation with them, well that's where things changed.
These guys were cool, like really cool.
I ended up having an hour long conversation hanging out with them.
They really liked me, I felt like I was fitting in, but I mean they really loved me.
Like Sasuke, who is me?
I just got out of your chat.
How I have this weird identity crisis?
Because I was one of the boys.
They were like talking to me and asking me questions, calling me, dude, and like, come on, brother.
It was so weird.
Sasuke Gucci has it.
like a person with thoughts and feelings.
But it's a lie.
I have embodied being a dude so much that when I'm actually in VRChat, I feel like I am a dude.
Not because Fia feels like a guy.
But because when I'm in VRChat, I'm somebody else.
I'm Sasuke Uchiha, and I'm a dude.
But I'm starting to get oddly comfortable with lying and being someone I'm not.
And I don't know if I necessarily like that.
I feel like really dissociated, and I feel really bad.
I honestly don't know if I should even continue this because...
They just made friends with somebody they thought was really cool, and then that person is gone.
After the end of this week, like Sasuke Kuchiha will not exist anymore.
I don't know what's gonna happen, I actually don't know what's gonna happen.
You Well, day 5 and 6, I was feeling pretty confident in myself as a All of a sudden, being Sasuke felt creepily natural.
As soon as I was inside the Avatar, I felt great and totally comfortable.
I was actually pretty charismatic.
I'm not even kidding that I went from being the person people just ignored and walked away
from to being so funny that trusted users would crowd around me and friend me right away.
But at one point,
I did change avatars and this is what some girls said about me,
so I think the Avatar might have a lot to do with it.
What kind of person do you think I am solely based on the way I like to Okay,
so you think I'm racist, I support abortions and that gaslight women, is there anything else?
Yup, they sure got me.
But just as fast as Sasuke came alive, it all came to an end.
But on the last day, there was a catch.
So, for tonight's experiment, I'm to do something slightly different and come
in here with my boyfriend, Thrill, except for he's actually going to be my mute girlfriend.
That's what we're up to tonight, let's get Gucci going.
I'm glad Sasuke spent his final hours with his girlfriend doing the classic mirror cuddling thing.
Switching gender rules through VR and our relationship is honestly worth the whole video on its own.
The most ridiculous moment I experienced was asking someone to clone their avatar, but they refused.
Until this.
Can we clone that?
No, bro, look at how cute my girlfriend is.
She wants his avatar.
Come on, come on, come on.
Pretty please look.
Look, how can you say no to this innocent face?
Come on, come on.
How can you say no?
Wanna make my all, oh, shh.
Oh, dude, you're the best.
Hey, that worked!
While hilarious,
it was also a slap in the face to me to actually realize there might be certain perks you get from people solely based on the fact that you're a cute girl with no other reason.
And with that, the life of Sasuke Gucciha comes to a close.
Still I am fully female and identify as such, I discovered an aspect of myself that is a guy.
There were a lot of things I liked about being one of the boys, and a lot of things I hated.
But what's important here is that without VR, I never would have had the opportunity to experience it.
But he started as a funny character and ended as a part of me that will somewhat always be there.
I'm really glad I did this experiment because it pushed and challenged me in some uncomfortable ways to the point I did almost give up completely in all honesty,
but ultimately I did grow as a person because of it, which I am thankful for.
Again, huge thank you to Voicemod for sponsoring this entire experiment.
I really hope that you guys will check out the free version.
and use code FIABODY for 5% off your purchase to start endeavors just like this.
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